Everytime I'm thinking of my state of spirit (lately, I mean) it comes into my mind Stereophonics' lines "I'm just looking, I'm not buying". Don't you ever felt numb, like you're just a spectator at your own show? I feel that way, I feel like my life is not the life I've been thinking of, it wasn't supposed to be like this. I feel like I'm living a dream or watching a movie, detached, light headed. I'm curious of what's next but I'm still numb. I'm just observing and I don't care anymore. I'm not going to involve or make the slicest effort. I'm gonna live the life as it is. I'm sick and tired of making efforts to help friends and those efforts to be misunderstood. I'm tired of loving and not getting a thing in return. Now I'm the one who's waiting peacefully. I have never been stocking anyone, so all those of you who ever felt like this coming from me, you are wrong. Do not, under no circumstances, interpret my good will with stocking. I'm not going to involve anymore. I'm ... just looking.
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